Okay, Now I Feel Different
Exactly a week ago, I announced that my memoir, How Was I Supposed to Know?, was finally published in e-book form.
Thank you so much for your support. In just the one week, I sold 8 copies and I think that’s amazing.
Last week, I was busy getting the paperback version ready for publication so my mom would read my book (and maybe a few others who prefer a physical book to a virtual one).
While going over the book one more time, I found about 100 minor boo-boos, goof-ups, and how-didn’t-I-catch-those-obvious-issues during the million editorial read-throughs this book (and its author) has endured. They have all been corrected. Well, the ones I caught. I’ve kind of lost faith in myself.
The good news that you can use “Manage your Kindle” or Smashwords and download the book again for free to get the clean or at least cleaner copy.
The bad news is that the expectations I set for myself and this first book release are, oh,
dashed in the dumper pretty much FUBARed.
I probably shouldn’t be so hard on myself, especially given that I’m Buddhist, dizzy all the time, and blonde. Plus this was my first book.
But I am an obsessive-compulsive perfectionist and this was my first book. So you see my conundrum, don’t you?
That’s why I feel so different this week.
I feel both proud of my accomplishment and embarrassed by my mistakes that slipped through my cracks. I’m honored by your faith in me and dismayed that I may have disappointed you when you found formatting problems or little grammar gaffs. I’m exhilarated by this writing/publishing process and exhausted by it, too.
Oh yeah, I feel different. I feel perfectly imperfect.
But I can assure you I have done everything in my power to make my book worth your time and hard-earned money.
I feel different in another way, too.
I held the book in my hands for the first time this week. It’s heavy, about an inch thick. 402 pages of my words. The cover is glossy and beautiful. It looks like a real book! Somehow seeing and feeling the book made me feel more like an author than seeing it on my e-reader. It’s tangible evidence of my hard work and it feels really, really great–especially knowing that I cleaned up all those minor errors that I found.
The book will be available on Amazon sometime this week. I’ll be sure to let you know.
Until then, thanks for your continued support of my efforts as a new author. Now I’ve got a lot of your blog posts to catch up on…