Okay, Now I Feel Different

Maybe that's why I feel different. Who installed this new mirror?

Maybe that’s why I feel different. Who installed this new mirror? I really need to do something with these eyebrows.

Exactly a week ago, I announced that my memoir, How Was I Supposed to Know?, was finally published in e-book form.

Thank you so much for your support. In just the one week, I sold 8 copies and I think that’s amazing.

Gimme an W! Gimme an O! Gimme another W! Gimme an aspirin for this groin pull! WOW! no one's getting out of this without some serious damage.

Gimme an W! Gimme an O! Gimme another W! WOW! Gimme an aspirin for this groin pull!  No one’s getting out of this without some serious damage.


Last week, I was busy getting the paperback version ready for publication so my mom would read my book (and maybe a few others who prefer a physical book to a virtual one).

Guess what?

Uh, this wasn't the kind of big splash I was aiming for with my book release...

Uh, this wasn’t the kind of big splash I was aiming for with my book release…

While going over the book one more time, I found about 100 minor boo-boos, goof-ups, and how-didn’t-I-catch-those-obvious-issues during the million editorial read-throughs this book (and its author) has endured.  They have all been corrected. Well, the ones I caught. I’ve kind of lost faith in myself.

The good news that you can use “Manage your Kindle” or Smashwords and download the book again for free to get the clean or at least cleaner copy.

The bad news is that the expectations I set for myself and this first book release are, oh, dashed  in the dumper  pretty much FUBARed.

I probably shouldn’t be so hard on myself, especially given that I’m Buddhist, dizzy all the time, and blonde. Plus this was my first book.

It's very important when standing after your Buddhist meditation NOT to get up too quickly. We dizzy blondes have a tendency to fall back down.

It’s very important when standing after your Buddhist meditation NOT to get up too quickly. We dizzy blondes have a tendency to fall back down.

But I am an obsessive-compulsive perfectionist and this was my first book. So you see my conundrum, don’t you?

That’s why I feel so different this week.

I feel both proud of my accomplishment and embarrassed by my mistakes that slipped through my cracks. I’m honored by your faith in me and dismayed that I may have disappointed you when you found formatting problems or little grammar gaffs. I’m exhilarated by this writing/publishing process and exhausted by it, too.

Need I say more?

Need I say more?

Oh yeah, I feel different. I feel perfectly imperfect.

But I can assure you I have done everything in my power to make my book worth your time and hard-earned money.

I feel different in another way, too.

I held the book in my hands for the first time this week. It’s heavy, about an inch thick. 402 pages of my words. The cover is glossy and beautiful. It looks like a real book! Somehow seeing and feeling the book made me feel more like an author than seeing it on my e-reader. It’s tangible evidence of my hard work and it feels really, really great–especially knowing that I cleaned up all those minor errors that I found.

Oh yeah! I'm feeling proud as a baby who can sit upright!

Oh yeah! I’m feeling proud as a baby who can sit upright!

The book will be available on Amazon sometime this week. I’ll be sure to let you know.

Until then, thanks for your continued support of my efforts as a new author. Now I’ve got a lot of your blog posts to catch up on…

I really need to get me one of these. The ad says they help you focus better on what you read on the Internet.

I really need to get me one of these. The ad says they help you surf  the Net more efficiently.

~ by Lorna's Voice on January 20, 2013.

53 Responses to “Okay, Now I Feel Different”

  1. Thank you so much for supporting me and congrats on the Kindle! I was skeptical, too (loving the feel of a real book as I do), but I like the portability and extras features that the Kindle provides. Have fun with it and let me know what you think of the book! 🙂

  2. Congrats Lorna on your book!
    Just made my purchase through my Kindle, thank you for providing the eBook format as well.
    How ironic that I was never going to have a Kindle, or read a book without actually being able to touch the paper pages.

    I should learn… I was never going to have a micro-wave either..

  3. It helped me become a very scared little girl when it came to reading out loud. Tots, I was traumatized by all those impossible words and hell-fire damnation stuff. Remember, it’s me we’re talking about here–Ms. Highly Sensitive Person!

  4. Well, I wouldn’t certify that as abuse. Maybe not the most nurturing way to get a child to reading aloud but you know the saying. I can’t remember it myself but something along the lines of folk can only do what they know. It must’ve helped you in some other way.

  5. Gosh, you’re going all high tech on me, Actually I have this phobia about reading aloud. It came from being forced to read the Old Testament verses aloud in front of my grandmother and other adults when I was just a kid. Is that certifiable child abuse or what?

  6. Well, at least do a podcast, reading a few sentences for us. Ever thought about a recording on CD?

  7. That means I’d have to get all dolled up and get someone to video tape me. Yikes! Maybe I can get an actress to stand in for me…

  8. Congrats to you again. I wanna see a book trailer. You talking about the book and whatnot. 🙂

  9. Thanks, Peg. The rewards are plenty, but so are the stresses. I feel like I’m swimming in waters that are too turbulent for me. They probably aren’t, but I’m not used to this kind of stress (which only makes my dizziness worse). I guess I’ll just have to pace myself…

  10. Wow! Wow! Wow! I’m so proud and envious -to actually write and PUBLISH a book. You deserve to feel like a whole pride of peacocks!

  11. Wonderful! 🙂 🙂

  12. I am planning to get a copy too 🙂

  13. Thanks! 🙂 🙂

  14. I will.

  15. I guess the one saving grace is that it doesn’t all come down at you at once. So the process is long and arduous, but at least you have lots of time to get used to the stress! And the reward of seeing and feeling my book (kind of like holding your baby after 9 months of carrying it inside you) is SO worth it. Of course you wouldn’t know an awful lot about that, now would you?! 😉 Just trust me, it is a feeling worth experiencing and you do forget a lot of the pain…

  16. Enjoy all the good feelings that come with the honour. You deserve it! 🙂

  17. I’m truly honored. And blushing just a bit…

  18. Can’t wait to hear what you think of it! 🙂

  19. The updated e-book is available now. So load away! And be sure to tell me (and the world) how you feel about the book! 🙂

  20. Aw, thanks, Elyse. I think you’re gonna love it. The paperback should be out in the next few days. Get that gift card ready! 🙂

  21. What would I do without you, Casey? Thank you, thank you, thank you. I was wondering if those formatting errors happened in the conversion process… 😉

  22. You are opening my eyes as what is involved or expected,, not sure if I am up to it all.. keep it all going ..thank you ;0

  23. Thanks, Gayle! I took to reading my paragraphs in reverse order just so I wouldn’t get caught in the story line! That drove me bonkers, so I had to stop. But I gave it my best shot. I’m a little disappointed that my professional editor didn’t catch some of these mistakes, but I did change the manuscript after she was done with it and some of the errors were formatting ones that just appeared–maybe in the conversion process. Who knows? Anyway, they are fixed and I feel good about what I’ve done.

    I really need to focus on marketing this one and starting to write the next one. I guess I am a real author! 🙂

  24. You know, J, I was thinking about how lucky those authors are that have publishers working for them. They have teams of people scanning their books for the kinds of things I spent days by myself trying to find. Yes, I had a professional editor, but two people can’t catch everything. And I changed a lot of things in the book after she was finished with it. I’ll tell you this: it was quite an educational process!

    I can’t wait for you to feel the book, too! It is such a hefty thing. You could use it as a door-stop! 😉

  25. Well, that’s an optimistic way of looking at it! I cleaned up the paperback and that’s how I found the errors. It’s not hard to update using CreateSpace. I just have to wait for them to release the new version and that seems to take a week for some reason. The problem would be if I ordered a bunch of copies for myself to sell on my own locally. They would be as they are. But I am confident that the book as it is now is, if not perfect, it is close. 🙂

  26. Congratulations! So, how hard will it be to correct subsequent runs of the hard copy book compared to follow up versions of an e-book? I wonder if some day the first edition of the hard copy book will be more valuable because it has mistakes.

  27. I just wanted to pop into your blog to tell you that I think you are a star. You have achieved this single handed. You don’t have a team of people working for you but instead you did this all on your own. Take a well deserved bow. I’m looking forward to getting my copy on Amazon and I know that I will get such a kick out of holding your book in my hands. Then I’m going to slink away and immerse myself in your words. Having followed your blog it feels like a real treat to be able to read your book. Looking forward to it.

  28. Can’t wait to get a copy…I prefer a “hold in the hand” version too. Bless you, Lorna for all your hard work…you have so much to deal with in your life…dizziness, blondness, etc. and then to try to read, re-read, edit and proof read over and over a 400 + page book…too much. I was a professional proof reader for a few years and you always want someone else to do your proofing for you. You can get “immune” to your own mistakes! Your writing is so entertaining…don’t be discouraged. Can’t wait to read the upcoming stories on your Mom and Grandma. Hugs…

  29. Don’t beat yourself up. Before I publish I’ve done several edits and revisions, had at least 3 different readers read and look for issues, and 2 editors each doing something different. And still I find problems in the final version–after it’s on sale. Sometimes the formatting issues are not even on the author or publisher but the cyber gremlins in the digital version.

    So fear not, dear Lorna. Your star still shines brightly…

  30. I have a Nook, not a Kindle, so I’m waiting on the paper version. I have a lovely gift card just waiting to buy your book … typos and all.

    If it is half as good as your blog, Lorna, well then, it’ll be damn good!

  31. I am going to order that book as soon as it is on Amazon.Got a Kindle Fire from the kids for Christmas and I can’t wait ro load you up beside Belly Button Blues another blog writer ebook.

  32. I think you’ve discovered something here. Authors deserve our congratulations not so much for publishing a book as surviving the confrontation with the boo-boos. Well done, Lorna. You’re now in the Jonathan Franzen class!

    I’ll be buying the paperback on Amazon.

  33. You are welcome. You have already distinguished yourself with excellence and accomplishment. Greater heights await you!

  34. Thanks, DJ. Glad to be in your company on all counts!

  35. I know what you mean. Real books feel like the real deal. And yes, looking forward to your Tuesday post! 🙂

  36. Thanks, Bulldog. I appreciate your support more than you know. 🙂

  37. That does make me feel better, Peter. I know we all make mistakes. Gosh, I tried so hard to make this book error-proof, though. I guess it was the number of little silly errors that I found that was so surprising. Oh well, they are fixed now.

  38. That’s great to hear, Diana. Hopefully I caught the ones you did. And I’m glad you’re enjoying the book. I thought the cover came out so well, too. That picture is just a hoot. I was a silly little girl (and haven’t changed much)! 🙂

  39. 🙂

  40. Bless your heart for your support! Have you posted a review on Amazon? That would sure help!

    My next book is going to be the true story about my mother and grandmother’s journey from Europe to America. It’s a doozey! I can’t wait to pilot-test some of the stories on my blog. 🙂

  41. You made me chuckle, Victoria–thanks so much! At least now there are significantly fewer typos! 🙂

  42. I sure do hope so. Maybe when some reviews start coming in–that’s if they’re good… 😉

  43. Thanks for the encouragement. I need it! 🙂

  44. Great! Congratulations! You really are a real author now. The process does more of the making than the product and it includes the mistakes and corrections. I can assure you that you have started well and can only get better. Pop something! Cheers!

  45. Things can only get better for your sales.

  46. Would you like to join P-PDA? That Post-Publication Depression Anonymous…a group founded just now for those of us with OCD-P who have published. Now, go do your yoga/meditation! I think when there’s a good story (and there is) most people will not even notice the typos.

  47. See what I mean? Typos shmypos!

  48. Typos shampoos – most people won’t even notice. And those that do understand the process. My best (as in worst) typo was in a technical document when I missed the “o” in the word “count.” Thank goodness I found it and corrected it, but it was out there for a couple of years first.

    I am proud to be one of the 8 purchasers and thoroughly enjoyed the book!

    Carry on. What will your next book be about?

  49. If it makes you feel better, I didn’t catch many mistakes. I haven’t finished it, (im not letting myself read more than 20 minutes a day until i finish mine) but what I’ve read has been wonderful. Love the cover too!

  50. I am pleased for you and for your accomplishments, and the sales of your book. As for mistakes: we all make them as I know too well. Your accomplishments dwarf them so Nothing to worry about there

  51. It is a wonderful achievement writing and having your book published… well done and don’t beat yourself up about the small errors in the book… I find so many when reading top authors… having published a legal manual for local use it feel so good to smell the pages and see the finished product… I also went through hundreds of rereads etc… and the fist page I opened in the book I found a simple mistake “van” instead of “can” the keys are together on the keyboard, but how did I miss it with so many rereads… I think the brain wants to read what we wanted to say rather than what we see…. I think it is a marvelous achievement you have made… well done.. and I will purchase the book in time, as I love your blog…

  52. Yay! I know what you mean, a physical book that you can hold feels much more real than a screen version. I hope real books never completely disappear, that would be tragic!

    See you over at my place on Tuesday! 😉

  53. Welcome to my world, Lol

    It is Amazing to hold your book.

    Also, Gratz on the Sales

    Don’t worry about the typos, happened to me too


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